Anxiety

So after talking with Shane on Saturday and in response to Alice's continual nagging I am getting off my duff and joining a gym. A real gym. Not some lame-o work gym, not the gym in my basement a real gym where real serious gym people work out. Where there are WINDOWS open to the street. And why wouldn't there be everyone in there looks like you could use their abdomens for hard writing surfaces. I've walked past it a million times and I must admit the view is nice.

My abdomen is best suited as a pillow (as is the rest of my body). I wonder if they will ask if I'm lost when I walk in the door. Sigh...fuck it I have to go. I mine as well go to one where I know someone that will force me to show up.

2011 To Do List

So to get over my latest woe-is-me funk I’ve decided to make some goals I like goals

1. Go to a David Sedaris style nudist camp….or topless at women’s fest which would count.
2. Acquire one new friend at the level where we can sit on the couch and watch TV for our nights entertainment
3. Go on 10 dates
4. Poach an egg
5. Take the GRE
6. Move to an apartment with a bit of outdoor space
7. Frame that Poster and Spain Painting
8. Go to the dentist
9. Go to the doctor
10. Go on a long weekend to Washington DC or New York.
11. Weigh 199lbs (less would be good too)
    

A little less fat

So I have totally fallen off my weight loss bandwagon. Gone are my first three months of obsessively tracking my food and having guilt cross my mind each time my lips decent on an alcoholic beverage. Gone are the days of packing my lunch. I haven't been on a treadmill in 4 months.

My goal for the move and all this insanity was to not gain any weight and quite frankly I've rocked it out.

Total weight loss since I moved....9.4lbs. Which puts me at a total loss of 38.7lbs. Which is starting to be quite a respectable number. 71.1 to my total goal.

I want to get back in to running since its good for my psyche. I purchased a new shuffle to replaced the broken one, I have treadmills in my gym and tons of sidewalks to run on once the weather gets better. I've given permission to my local pals to begin harassing me to join them on races.

I have another date tonight. I'm so freaking popular. I love the people here, I love my apartment, I love sleeping in my bed which even fits in my bedroom. Life is good.

Now if someone would just unpack all these bloody boxes that are littering my dining area.

Should be Sleeping

Moving countdown:  16 days!

My parents and Alice came up last weekend and we got lots of stuff done.  Pretty much everything is packed priced or thrown away.  With the exception of my clothes, a few dishes and toiletries.  I'm taking this weekend off to visit Chicago for my 10yr highschool reunion and my physical & pre-employment pee in a cup test.  I plan on passing with flying colors since I am boring and shockingly heathy for a fat girl.

The reunion might prove to be a bit more difficult.  I didn't really consider I would have to wear something and it seems like the type of event one should have a planned outfit for.  I'm thinking a big ratty turtlneck sweater and paint stained sweatpants.  Might go with story of the bff date and moving back in with my parents.  Also in today reunion panic I realized that I don't really remember many people from highschool.  I imagine it going like this...

Stranger:  Ann how are you?

Me:  Spoken in a painfully enthusiastic obviously overcompensating manner  How are you?!?!  Its been so long!  What are you up to?  (thinking I have no idea who this person is)

Stranger:  Oh you know...I'm the CEO of xyz this is my supermodel wife, here look at this picture of our twins they are staring in the next pampers commercial.

Me:  Oh they are so adorable.  (I hate kid pictures, I never know what to say...they are babies they all look the same to me and all I want to say is yeah I would have kids but I'm not willing to give up sleep for a tax deduction).

Stranger:  So what are you up to?

Me:  Well I work in MN, but I just got a new job in Chicago so I'm going to be relocating in a couple weeks.

Stranger:  (Insert any quote from Fargo here)

Me:  Fake Laugh

Stranger:  So have you found a place?

Me:  Ummm, no I can't afford to sell my house so I'm going to move in with my parents.

Stranger:  Oh  (Awkward pause, looks down, embarrassed for both of us)  So humm....Did you come with anyone?

Me:  Yeah my friend Alice came with me, I always drag her along anytime I need a date.

Stranger:  Oh I didn't know you were a lesbian.  Kinda explains why you were so quiet & weird in highschool.

Me:  Yeah no, shes just a friend.  I'm just so socially awkward that I only have the one.  Anyways nice catching up but if I have to continue this conversation or have a painfully similar one with anyone else tonight I better hit the bar so I don't end up slitting my wrists in the bathroom.  Good seeing you though!

Operation A little less fat update:

Moving is horrible for ones diet and exercise regimen.  In two weeks I've managed to gain back 3 lbs and quite frankly I'm surprised its not more since I've been feasting on every local specialty known to man.  Not to mention I'm trying to eat everything in my house (most of it is not good for me).  My lips have been descending on more fried foods than veggies lately.  But whatever.

Week 13

Moving is not good for operation a little less fat.  I gained 1.0lbs this week.  This is most likely due to my going out to eat for three delicious high calorie meals and a bunch of alcohol.  I also blame this pattern for my annoying cold.  Quite frankly I'm surprised it wasn't worse.

Week 12

Another fun week.  Not really.  I've been busy, I've been over tired and I haven't been the gym in 7 days.  Somehow through my diet of McDonalds and prepackaged food I lost 5.1lbs this week. 

So definitely not bad news.  I'm going to try and get a decent nights sleep and hopefully make it back to the gm tomorrow.  Also there are some potentially exciting things on the horizon. Vague I know but yeah thats all I'm saying right now.

Week 11

It's Monday weigh in day. Today is a particularly exciting because I officially reached my 10% goal. I never really cared or knew anything about the 10% goal until I weight to weight watchers the first time. I was never able to make it to that damn 10% in my three bouts as a member. Well suck it weight watchers I did it on my own.

Well don't suck it. I like weight watchers. I like their little three month journal I like having my points target to stick within. It gets me in the habit of this is what appropriate eating looks like and so far it has gone well.

In other news Alice and I have finally settled on our 5k date October 3rd. I'm going to take it a little easy this week on the jogging since my knee has been bothering me so I might just do 15 minutes of running and then cycle for 30minutes or so. I really should sign up for a personal training thing since I have absolutely no clue of how to exercise, but then again there is still so much time for that. I'm just going to sit back and enjoy the glory time before the first sucky platue.


27.7 lbs lost! Rock on!

Wellness Evaluation

Today was my big wellness evaluation. Sure I should have done this when I started nearly 3 mos ago but I knew it involved spandex and running on a treadmill with a gas mask type contraption affixed to your face so I took my time in making the appointment.

Honestly it wasn't as bad as I expected even considering my evaluator was young tall and dark & breathtakingly handsome. Perhaps next time I will request a old lady so my resting heart rate isn't affected by lust.

So after an hour of embarrassing tests I got my less than lack luster results. But I'm not going to let it bother me. Its a start and something to improve upon.

Today
Weight: 246.1 lbs
Fat: 51.3%
VO2: 19.6
Resting HR: 103

And for the Goals
Weight: 165
Fat: <30%
VO2: >30
Resting HR: <75